I'm Not Gonna Kill Myself for a Damn Commitment

I think that's just about it. I'm not gonna kill myself for a damn commitment. Any commitment for that matter.

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I'm not a superhero who could save you whenever you're in deep shit.

I'm not a genie in your god forbidden lamp you could rub to grant your everyday wishes.

I'm not a convenience store you could go to, open 24/7 to satisfy your immediate needs.

I'm not a 1-800 hotline you could call to serve you in no time.

I'm not a pizza delivery guy expected to be on your doorstep wtihin minutes.

I'm not a Fedex counter you could go to to have things delivered in an instant.

I'm not a resident physician you could page to give you the shots whenever you need it.

You get the point...

I'm just not what you want me to be.

I'm sick and tired of all the whining and ranting.

Of issues and conflicts between you and your so-called friends.

I am, without a doubt, the worst candidate alive for a commitment.

But, conversely, that's also the reason that I'm the best candidate.

Because as strongly as I was opposed to the idea, now that I'm behind it, I am as fervently and passionately committed.

I'm in love with you. I'd give you anything, I'd do anything, I'd be anything...

to make you happy.

But please, don't ever think I'd give you my life.

What could I possibly give or do when I'm dead? My soul?

Give me a break. I need some sleep!
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Everything written above is figurative. I mean, come on, I'm not that cheesy. But one thing is true, it's about love and my commitment to it. The one written below is one of my favorite tv quotes.

I don't wanna be with someone who sacrificed their life and called it love...
- B.K.